My Hormonal imbalance Diagnosis Story

Almost one year ago, after moving to the states, I got diagnosed with a hormonal imbalance and hormonal disorder! This was all new to me and I just didn’t know what to expect! My first thought and question to my doctor was, will I be able to have children? That goes to show how we as women are wired from a young age! For the most part of last year, I have been at war with myself, not only was I in my head on most days, I lost a lot of weight because according to my doctor, one of the ways to help my body was to lose and maintain a good weight. Closer to the end of 2022, I started gaining back the weight even though I was still exercising, and being on a full vegan diet. I realized that the medications were not helping and was also contributing to my weight gain and I stopped taking them without consulting my doctor.

In the process, I also developed gastroenteritis because there were days where I would not eat, and days I would just eat one meal. There was always food available but I just didn't feel like eating. My mind began to wire itself in a way that was becoming unhealthy and with being anemic, my health just kept getting worst. There were days, I could not even get out of bed and days I would literally roll my eyes at the image staring back at me in the mirror! If you've been a member of LIW for quite a while or have read my book, you know how hard and challenging it has been for me and my body because of everything it has been through. While I always try to remind myself of how I was created in God's image and likeness, my flesh and mind always try to get in the way some days.

This year, I chose to accept my body as is, yes I will continue to exercise and eat healthy but I realize that I need to stop beating on myself so much. I know that there is nothing too big or impossible for God and this is just something I will need to live with and learn how to manage and handle.

Life will always try to throw surprises our way, and these surprises sometimes come in the form of good things and bad things. But it is how we deal with those surprises in return that matters!

It has been hard dealing with the symptoms of this condition and there are days fear try to overtake my thoughts about so many what ifs, but in being positive and reminding myself of God's word and who He is, I am able to manage! Then I think of the many women who have conditions that are worst than mine, like fibroids, PCOS, Endometriosis and the like. It is in those moments I find myself being thankful and loving on God more. Repeating over and over that "It could've been worst!"

This is my year of body positivity! This is my year of honesty!

Let this be a reminder that you are wonderfully and fearfully made, sickness or no sickness, health conditions or no health condition!

Happy New Year!

Love always,

SJ