In memory of..

So I texted you today,

I looked for your name as I usually do

Typing away to share the simplest of happenings because that’s what we do

I found myself staring at the screen for hours and hours, waiting for the phone to light up to

see your name but there was no response.

So it felt weird,

You always replied in a matter of seconds no matter how busy your day has been

Even if it’s to say “we will talk in a bit!”

I couldn’t help myself! I kept on waiting,

Waiting and I waited some more

Unknowingly, tears started to fall

My chest began to hurt and before I knew it I couldn’t breathe.

So I gave in,

I couldn’t hold it in any longer

the scream that was begging to be set free

But it didn’t help!

The idea that my message would not be read and that you would not respond manifested itself in my thoughts and along with my emotions they danced to a sad tune

I think of the plans we’ve made and the goals and dreams you had and the one you were this close to accomplish

It all left unfinished!

So it sucks,

That I am unable to hear or see you again

I don’t mean to sound like I am living without hope but right this minute it hurts

I believe in the promises of God

but I also can’t help but think of how your time on Earth was short

It all happened so quick!

We were on the phone and the next minute I am being told to sit

So it hurts,

I am left with only this question, “why do all of the good ones go so quickly?”

You were one of a kind! A woman with the purest heart and intentions

Always ready and willing to help but most of all you gave your best self without holding anything.

And so I will miss,

The I love you’s at the end of the day

The playful threats to come for me when I swayed

Your voice and accent which made me laugh each day

The lectures, the corrections and most of all our friendship!

You can never be forgotten because you did just what you said you would

And in your own words you whispered to me,

“I want to live to inspire before I expire!”

So I texted you today, because it’s what we usually do and there was no response!