Faith through the storms

Hi everyone!

If I am not wrong, clicking the link and title means that something has sparked your interest! Either way, I am happy yet nervous to have you reading.

Before I dive in, I want to thank my dear friend SJ for giving me this opportunity! We met recently when she moved to Florida and from our first conversation I knew a lasting friendship was going to come out of this and she is a woman destined for great things. In one of our conversations, she told me of her plans to making this website available for others to also share their story, to bring hope and inspire and I knew right then and there that I couldn’t be quiet about my testimony!

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In high school I met the love of my life, my beloved husband Daniel, at first he was just a crush, we went to the same church and our parents were good friends. I never thought that something serious could come off of it but when we turned 18 and was ready to move to different States for college Daniel stated his true intentions. With him off to seminary school and me to Law school I doubted that it would work but by faith we decided to give the long distance a try.

It was not an easy journey but everyday I grew to love him more. After a year and a half in the relationship while visiting back home the same time, Daniel asked my dad for my hand in marriage and proposed. We married six months later and I moved to Miami to be with him and finished my studies online.

During our courtship, Daniel always joked about having two boys, I never asked why boys specifically but I knew he wanted children and what having them really meant to him. When I turned 23, we started trying and we were excited to be on the journey. With every missed period we got excited, but with every pregnancy test came disappointments. I went from being so hopeful and happy to feeling like a failure!

Every night, God and I was at war because I kept asking Him why. I saved myself and walked in purity, we did everything by the books and yet this was happening. We went from one doctor’s office to another with both of us being tested and absolutely nothing came out of it, they all said that everything was fine and that there was "absolutely nothing" stopping us from getting pregnant.

My husband being the sweet guy he is reassured me that it was all okay and that when it’s meant to happen it would. I started pouring myself into work amongst other stuff while praying steadfastly and finally it did happen. I took a test and it was positive! We felt like everything fell into place, excited, but keeping it a secret until we were sure! Sadly, our excitement didn’t last long, our baby didn’t make it! 4 weeks into the pregnancy we lost our baby.

I cried every night for God knows how long! I wasn’t sure as to how I was going to be able to survive this pain and anger I felt. My pastor and his wife became my source of strength during this time and my mum also flew in to be with me for a while. Slowly but surely with the help and counsel I began to cope.

God used that period of mourning to speak to me like never before through the story of a woman who had unwavering faith during one of the most difficult times in her life. I am sure you know the story of Rachel, Rachel who patiently waited to marry Jacob after being cruelly deceived by her father, who tricked Jacob into marrying her sister Leah. Her prayers were finally answered when she got married to him, and although she was childless at first, she became the mother to Joseph and Benjamin.

He reminded me of countless women in the Bible who also had a period in their life where they prayed and hoped for a child and waited for their miracle, especially my name sake Sarah.

What I learned from these stories and what I believe God was teaching me at the time was that He is always in control! He sees everything, and that his plans are always good and perfect. Even when things don’t always turn the way we expect, He is still at work and in the end His name will be glorified. It was Rachel’s loyalty and steadfastness that spoke to me the most! Even through this difficult time and taking matters into her own hands by giving her maid to bear her husband’s children she remained faithful and unashamed.

I gained strength in knowing that in everything and through the hardest storms keeping the faith is what works and continues to work. If there is a message that I would like you to receive from this post, it is to keep the faith even when keeping it might seem hard. Out of this season in my life, God has birthed a ministry in me where I encourage other women through my husband's ministry and my podcast which I am about to launch called 'The waiting season.' It was shocking to see the amount of women in the church who actually went through a season of "barrenness" and some who are going through it currently. My husband continues to be the best he can be and we continue to pray and believe for a child and is even now open to adoption as an option.

This is not the fairy tale story you probably hoped for but I can reassure you that I am much stronger now than how I started. I believe it is in knowing who you serve and what He is able to do! God took one of my lowest moments and gave me something that is extremely valuable, renewed faith, a deeper and closer relationship to Him and my husband and a community of women who continue to pray for each other, believing in what seems impossible to science and unbelievers.

God's timing is perfect and I believe that in His time, His will shall be done!

This is my testimony!

I am Sarah, a Believer, the wife of Daniel, the mother of an angel and our future children!